I’M NOT A BUSINESSMAN!!!?!?!?!! I’m a BUSINESS, man! Now let me handle my business damn!

This week was ok! Nothing special. Well yesterday me and that dude…spent time together…it was ok, at first it was awkward but then it was like the good ol’ times…then we started arguing…then we started talking…we kissed…man! I HATE HIM! But I still….*UGH* I still …have strong feelings for him =I and I miss having someone to cuddle with and kiss and hug and that good stuff…but I just don’t feel like he deserves me plus he’s slumming it with some 30 yr old hood mama jail bird with a child lol SO YEAH! =D in the words of beyonce ” let’s go little kitty kat, I think it’s time to go little kitty kat, he don’t want no more, quite frankly I’m not feeling it”lol...i’m just waiting for my clyde/prince charming to sweep me off my feet =)…and you know what’s sadder? his ‘rents don’t even like me anymore-yeah- they say “I’ve became cold, I used be so nice”.… u kno, mr. slumming low key made me this way…. hey, it’s a cold world……and what can I say, my chain doesn’t say “SnootyBooty” for no reason =]Anyway I spend most-well ALL of my time at home. What can I say I’m an indoors girl! But for Julio the 4th my family and I excluding my mom went to University of Redlands to watch the firework show. It was okay! OH yeah and yesterday I went to a Speech Banquet just for the Seniors it was okay…lol, I mean what can I say everything in the Inland Empire is just “okay”. Then of course we’ve got the little hating BROKE FAKE SLUTS that unfortunately exist in my life lol[[you know who u guys are=D keep doing ur jobs-fucking, lying, hating and being broke =P]]I think the most exciting thing I did this week was talking to Laura[[yes I finally called her]] She’s so incredible and wise- she’s just awesome. She was like “so tell me all the things people say when you tell them you’re going to FIDM”[[lol she already knew the bizz]] I was like well they don’t think I’ll make it because it’s a very competitive business, it’s too expensive [[which I agree with]] &the job placements aren’t as they seem. She was like,”who’s saying this?” and I told her[[u know who u are]] and she was like “Well in your eyes are those people you look up to or want to be like?” NOOO!!! That’s a nightmare! Lol She was like “Well those people are just trying to keep you down because there not used to people like you who chase their dreams, they honestly don’t want to see you doing better than them, they don’t think you’re capable or they just were miss informed about our school[[aka HATERS DOING THEIR JOB!lol}}. Now there’s nothing in this world that isn’t competitive-even medical research. Especially your preferred major Apparel Manufacturing Management. Most students don’t choose that major. But if you dedicate yourself 100% like I know you will-you can do it! So many people have made it here because they concentrate and focus and do what they need to do- the ones that don’t concentrate-don’t make it. The owner of Baby Phat, the owner of BCBG, the designer of Juicy Couture, one of our professor’s is a lead director for Armani, the True Religion Men’s designer, The Roxy/Quiksilver designer, Barbie’s Senior Manager, Head of Purchasing for 7 for all mankind, Merchandise Manager for Bloomingdale’s, Production Manager of Guess?, Ralph Lauren associate designer, Banana Republic Merchandise Manager, Director of Merchandising Tommy Hilfiger, North Face senior designer, the owner of Fred Segal, the Rampage designer and so much more! The ones that don’t make it are the ones who don’t love this business and don’t believe in themselves and they allow the people around them to influence them and discourage them. Now on the second day of school we have a huge job fair and the students who have resumes and are ready are the ones who get jobs! You know, if this is what you want to do, then do it! The only thing stopping you right now is yourself.” She’s the realest white woman I’ve ever met.lol. I love that lady. She tells me what I need to hear. No one around here tells me that shit. I’m not saying I need to hear that to do what I want…but it helps, you know-encouragement! Even though it’s an arm and leg just to go there-I’m going. My plan is to get my BS in 3.5 years [[hopefully]] because they make so you can go to school all year round! No x-mas break shit, spring break none of that-just fashion =] Then I’m going to like some kind of small country in asia or Europe or south America and open a factory[[NO NOT A SWEAT SHOP, this aint that 4ever 21 bullshit! I’m going to take care of my people]] and pay them to make my kill off designs like my dresses and jackets and fits that are in my portfolio-not these little screen print shits. Then I’m going to open two shops[[at first]] one on Melrose and one in New York [[KILL OFF STORES that look tight as f@*%]]and have some stores and boutiques sell Beans. Then I’ll expand. Well that’s what I see right now-but I might get some ideas or words or wisdom when I go to FIDM from my professors …It’s not going to be easy! But I know what I have to do…and right now…I have to get good grades[[I have summer school manana]] and save!! I’m going to need all the money I can get my hands on…this isn’t going to be some little mom and pop shit. Beans is going to have be a movement. And beans can do it=] My dad was a hustler and my mom was LOW KEY and so am I. I don’t need anyone but me, myself and I. I’ll get it done! I’ll run it! But I don’t have to tell that- you already know! Lol. I just got to meet the right people and I know I will, especially when I go to FIDM. Yup Beans is a business, man! Now let me handle my business damn! Lol 10 more days till beans is legal! YAAHOO!! I still don’t know what I’m doing for bday…maybe I should just get pampered all day then go to the club by myself-*ugh* but I’m scuuured, older people are crazy lol!....