yea I'm alone& I'm scared as a dog, but I got a new song& I want u to sing along...

As some of you know, I was in Witchita, Kansas last week! I was at a "National Forensics League (the real NFL) National Tournament". I didn't break (excel to the next round)...i'm a sore loser.........but I guess I'm happy that I was "Sounthern California District Dramatic Interpretation Champion" Basically I got 1st place at Nat quals. You know, before I left I was ...very unhappy. It's obvious if you read my last blog...and you know how I talked about the pathetic pussy's and the dirty dicks just wanting to show off and how I said it's not about being nigger rich...it's about being wealthy. Kansas SOOO proved my point! I mean these people had ESTATES...i means ACRES of land! It was beautiful! And the whole time I was there I only saw like "2 scrapers on dubs". But I saw my TTRRUUEE love the Mercedes Benz G 550 AMG on stocks and I saw alot of lexus' and bimmer's on stocks. It was refreshing! Don't get me wrong I love the young fly flashy hollywood thing but kansas was...normal! Out there everything is FLAT! Great food[[Rib Crib, Freddy's Frozen Custard]], DEERS! People who don't know how to give directions...and...american! I wanted to find Dorothy and trade her heels so bad!lol! I've always loved those ruby pumps! I also, bought this book out there "Nice Girls Don't Get Rich"-i recommend it to every....girl!lol. Even though I'm scared out of my fricking mind and no one really supports or believes in what I'm doing.....that book gave me the courage to actually try to start my clothing line. Mr.Wilson told me about this website called cafepress.com that screen prints and he also told me that Paul Frank started his business by making leather wallets. So I opened a cafepress account another myspace account and started turning my ideas into reality. I did ALOT of thinking in Kansas...some of my pondering was often interrupted by midnight calls from dirty dicks and the constant nagging of pathetic pussy's but I TRIED not to let it shake me.lol Yea it's this new thing I'm trying "staying in my bubble and focusing on me." And I was doing quite well if I do say so myself...until we reached Ontario and queen slut was there (just my luck) asking Mr.Wilson questions!lol! You should've saw my face I looked like I just smelled Kansas again and I just shook my head at her and walked away before I...was shaken. Mr.Wilson was like are u okay? I wanted to say "she was 3 months pregnant wanted to have a 3some with me and when I dumped my cheating lying "boyfriend"/her "friend" she started talking to him"...but I just answered" OH YES! I'M FINE!" I know he knew that I was lying b/c I was-but whatever! I'm worried about Beans Frippery...you like the name Beans is my nickname and Frippery means finery in dress, esp. when showy, gaudy, or the like.Cute huh?? I spent all day making that fricking logo! I hate Adobe! That inspired the Adobe tee!!lol!!! So check it out! I'll be writing one of these things every Sunday night....or Monday morning! I'll be posting new shirts for Beans also! So support me please and contact me! Thanks so much for just reading this! have u ever just ...wanted something so bad....u were willing to do anything...something new to make it work...well this is mine....so get used to beans!